Tag Archives: all about me

It was 10 years ago

Today is June 20, 2017. What happened on this day 10 years ago, is lost to me. I don’t know OK? I have to think to remember what underwear I put on this morning. Generally speaking, in June 2007 I was in my last year of high school. I had probably just wrapped up my Caribbean Secondary Education Certificate examinations and was preparing for graduation.  (Coincidentally, 10 years later my high school, the St. Hilda’s Diocesan High School, is finally extending to have a sixth form.)

I remember a few things that were concerning me the most at that time.

 

Oh my God! I failed my Caribbean History examination and will have to resit it.

 

I DON’T fail! I just don’t. Like anyone else out there I don’t like the feeling of failing or losing. This was the first time (only twice so far) that I felt that I had not only let myself down but others as well and caused embarrassment and a blow to my reputation. After the exam I went home, got into bed and cried all night (again, this only happened one more time after this).

Leading up to the examination I was online (yahoo messenger…yes. It was hot) chatting with a classmate of mine about unrelated topics. Once at school, the chatting was taken offline and face-to-face. I did not revise or read over the way I normally would have in preparation. I felt unprepared.

When the results came out, I passed Caribbean History with a distinction (the highest score/ grade category). What was I stressing about? I don’t know. And on top of that, I am not an historian today.

 

I am not graduating or taking any graduation pictures until my broken tooth is fixed.

 

That was the demand I made to my parents. This must be the first time I am talking about my tooth. I usually don’t even acknowledge it because I’ve been insecure about it for the longest while. I should just accept it because I am stuck with it.

In primary school, I broke my front tooth and got it fixed. A few years later while still in primary school I broke the tooth again AND the tooth beside it. When I went to get it fixed, the pain was too much to bear so I couldn’t go through with the procedure. I went through high school with a broken tooth and the nerve started to decay after a few years.

The long and short of the story is that it could no longer be fixed and had to be replaced. Yes, I have a fake tooth in my mouth. I was so uncomfortable smiling and it affected the way I moved my lips when speaking. That was the most annoying bit. The fact that my speech sounded a little different (only for a short while) was nowhere close to how annoying it was that my lips instinctively tried to cover the tooth when I spoke. I am still a little self-conscious of it especially for pictures but I have learned how to just work with it (it’s all in the angles). This should not have been such a big deal because I found out that it is a lot more common than I thought. Young and old have a tooth like mine and we are all living just fine.

 

I can’t wait to get out of this place!

 

Not the school (I loved school). I just wanted to get out of the community and town I lived in. It wasn’t a bad place but it wasn’t my fit. I didn’t feel comfortable and it got worse as time went by.  I felt as though I would be stifled there and Kingston would be a better fit for me.

As it turns out, Kingston is a better fit. The friends I am closest with I have either met here or reconnected with here in Kingston. My nomadic spirit is free to move around and the constant bustle is in keeping with my need to always be doing something. BUT low and behold, why must life be so expensive here? Sweet heavens! I don’t even want to think of the alternative. I am happy where I am and that’s that.

 

If I could go back in time I would have told my younger self to stop stressing. It is all going to work out. Focus on your own lane and do not be distracted by the pace of others. You possess a power in you that you cannot imagine right now but you will see it at work.

That would have been comforting to hear 10 years ago.

What were you worried about 10 years ago that no long matters today?

 

CFW201
I think I turned out alright.
Advertisements

GTKM 2

Here are 20 more random facts about myself:

  1. I get excited very easily but I don’t show the emotion on my face. Cant afford to have stares when I’m disappointed.
  2. I love fresh fruits and nuts.
  3. My eating cycle goes like this over a period of months: indulge in gluttony for weeks, drink, drink, then lack of appetite, snack, snack for days, drink, repeat. And by ‘drink’ I do not mean alcohol.
  4. I like exercising.
  5. I am the 1st daughter for both my parents.
  6. I prefer the smell of Old Spice to Irish Spring. Irish Spring could be an air freshener; Old Spice says ‘bite me…anywhere’ lol.
  7. When I was younger I considered becoming a nun. That was later toned down to a pastor’s wife…that later went through the window.
  8. I went to an all girl high school so I don’t know how to be dependent on a guy. It sucks but I’m trying.
  9. I cannot hear poor grammar and not correct it. Even if I say nothing verbally…I corrected you in my head.
  10. My favourite colour is every shade of blue. I have never seen a shade that I’m not in love with.
  11. I am rebellious.
  12. I don’t drink carbonated beverages without shaking the bottle to get rid of as much ‘acid’ as possible.
  13. I DO NOT think Ferrero Rocher are the best chocolates ever created.
  14. I like looking good but I don’t like wearing clothes that much.
  15. I have already started my autobiography and my life seems to get more boring as I get older (or maybe its the perspective).
  16. I was laughed at on my first day of school at my second high school! Love that school.
  17. I was raised to think that all human beings are equal and because of that I have never been afraid of authority.
  18. My celebrity crushes eventually become my future husbands…all with an identifying number…till I forget about them.
  19. I am a horrible self critic.
  20. If you ask me to do something for you and I don’t respond, its a no because I never agreed to do it.

GTKM

Hi again!

I decided to list some facts about myself so that you who do occasionally read my blog posts (from tumblr and other blog hosting sites) can know a little more about me.

Consider this, your “Getting to Know Me” part 1

  1. I am absolutely not a morning person.
  2. I love food but can’t seem to get fat.
  3. I don’t trust quiet persons.
  4. I am a die-heart John Grisham fan…I love reading.
  5. A TV is for me what a radio is for most persons.
  6. I am never comfortable in one place for too long.
  7. I’m crazy fun!
  8. I can be insensitive at times, but it doesn’t mean I hate you.
  9. I CANNOT discuss my feelings…I’m working on it though.
  10. I think that I am unisex…lol
  11. I’ve been told I am funny…I don’t know how true that is.
  12. Sometimes, I’m too bold and brave for my own good.
  13. I’m an island girl.
  14. I love dancing.
  15. I’m simple… I like actions and presence.
  16. I’ve been a tom-boy for more than ½ of my short life.
  17. I rather a good book as a gift, than a dress.
  18. I am in love with shoes.
  19. I try really hard to be girly. Its hard work.
  20. I make it a point of duty to be difficult in conversations. I like when people are forced to think.

image

Until Next Time….